(Play the song; the last clip is Young Dylan on Johnny Cash show: "once I had mountains in the psalm of my hand" ... whew.
Redondo Beach, California. 1967. A Summer night by the sea.
Danny’s three room apartment is painted deep blue. A red silk scarf from a flea market drapes down crazy in a corner--not where one would expect. Something written in Chinese calligraphy hangs over the couch; sounds of Leonard Cohan, Moody Blues, Janis Joplin. Someone smokes rolled cigarettes. This room is filled with good friends--though we don't know names. Our baked skin from a long ocean day brings us close, brought us here. My lips still taste like salt. I comb sand from my hair onto a towel and slide down to lean against a couch, the only furniture in the room. A dark-haired girl lights Sandalwood incense. People move around in muted talking, cooking in a tiny kitchen. Sandals scrunch sand on the tiles. Kat, from Idaho, pulls my hair back and braids it into strands, tying the ends with string. Another girl weaves the braids together with pieces of thin cloth she cuts from a blue scarf. There is no fear in this room. (Most of my life, I’ve been blessed with good friends. Sometimes they seem to come out of nowhere.) Faces shine in the dim light. My muscles release into drowsy--from running in sand, sea spray, sun and more sun, waves breaking over my shoulders. The dark-haired girl hands me a plastic fork, ice water, a hand-painted dish filled with cheesecake and warm raspberry jam. Someone else comes out of the shower. I trust these people--all of them. Here, I am not just what I can do. I am not my face or wit. I just "am" to them. We listen to the end of “Nights in White Satin.” For a moment, it’s quiet: a soft kind of easy stillness that no one wants to break. I hear a spoon scraping a bowl and seagulls on the beach. Danny picks up a guitar. Long-haired-blond-guy by the window wipes a harmonica on his shirt. He blows three or four notes, licks his lips, drinks water, while Danny picks at strings. He hits a certain chord. The blond person glances over. They strum and blend, and we sing--just because we want to, just because it’s a good day. In this twilight room, there is no Vietnam, JFK, Dr King, or Lyndon B. It’s just us and “Take a Load off Fannie.” Then, for the first time, I hear Bob Dylan's "Girl from the North Country." Even now, when I grow up I want to be Bob Dylan. The music could go on forever, floating out over the sand, over the ocean, straight up to the stars. I think good memories must be rocks we step on to get over bad ones.
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That was beautiful... made me cry actually... When you said there is no fear in this room. That was beautiful. And the ending is like sweet music. I loved it. Please keep writing... you are so refreshing. I love you, hippie...
I think you may be prejudice.
I second the motion. Keep going. This was a beautiful piece. The part about the girls braiding your hair moving into how you trust everyone was great.
You are amazing, Sharon. You're one of my inspirations. You'll never know how much that one semester taught me about writing. Can you believe you only employed me for one semester?
James, and you'll never know how much I needed to hear that--from both you and Megan. Sometimes, I feel like I'm hanging onto a cliff with fingernails, which are cut too short and have no nail polish.
Sharon, I also needed to read your post today. I took my first sick day today because I am just so completely worn out and have PTO saved up a little and I want to do laundry and would rather do laundry than school today, even though I really do love teaching school. I have stayed in bed until noon, thinking, dozing, dreaming. I woke and read your blog and your sentence about good memories being rocks to lift you from bad ones shook me awake. Thank you for shaking me awake with inspiration today.
You must know that when I am you and write back to my own rooms full of trust and kindred companionship good good the best of memories, you must know that I will always run first to you and your house, to Jen, Trev, Serena, Joe, the gang. To midnight kitten rescues and Rexburg parades and Emily Little and you and I watching the river go by. I will think of eating handfuls of honeydew at Writing Center parties and never once wondering if someone didn't approve.
Sharon, thank you for reminding me of the good parts. I don't know why I am so harsh with myself, but usually when I think of that time, I just think of all the bad, wrong stupid things I did. Another problem is the brain cells, many of which were destroyed back then I'm afraid. There is much that I don't remember at all. But your post brought back that smell of sandalwood incense, and how my slim young body felt in my favorite India print bedspread dress, and tossing my long hair while dancing like there was no tomorrow. I remember how you danced, your feet planted in one spot and moving the whole rest of your body. And what about the night we danced with the Indians at the Bannock-Shoshone Festival (long before rez casinos)? I will never forget the thrill when that old Indian woman gave me her shawl so I could join the dance. And skinny dipping in the river with Christy! Oh, yeah. I'm definitely going to be listening to Bob Dylan tonight while making raspberry jam with my grandson. Thanks for the memories.
If "destroyed brain cells" brings about your sculptures, then I want more of mine destroyed. Hey, did you know Gillz (Emily) just moved very close to you? If you're not in the middle of an art show, I want to come down soon. When school starts . . . oh ugh.
Sorry for the interruption but you rarely post things like this on the WC blog. I have to sneakily creep over and read this blog every once in awhile. Is it strange that I feel like this blog is the you go to when perhaps you've outgrown the WC? Outgrown is the wrong word. I think it's more like when all the people that you knew at the WC are gone and so you no longer understand the posts or the writing. Today I scrolled down and read the post about Waikiki. Beautiful. All of it. I hope that it makes it into your next book.
I'm with Julie. I've never been able to even link my own blog with yours because it seems sacred in a way. Perhaps it is the honesty and the images that make it that way. I hope you're writing another book.
Thanks for giving me wonderful stepping stone memories. I'm sure all who visit Birch Trees feel the same.
Ha. You are both ALWAYS welcome. Julie is right. Sometimes, I don't understand the WC people or get out of the mood for the fun we have on that site. I only worry that what I write here may not be appropriate for some, but I have to stay honest on this site. I feel VERY honored that you visit.
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